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Rindu

Tadi skype ngan abah.

Tak banyak bende pun nak cakap. Yang banyak tanya, abah. Aku jawab pun sepatah je. Kesian pulak dengan abah. 

Tapi, sejujurnya, aku memang menunggu untuk sype ngan abah. 

Abah: Haa, ade bende lagi nak cakap?

Aku: ....hmmm ...

Abah: .... Camtu abah letak dulu lah

Aku:..ok, assalamualaikum

Abah: Waalaikumussalam

Padahal,  aku tak tahu nak start dari mane. Banyak bende yang aku tengah rasa skarang ni. 

To be honest, aku tengah down. 

To be honest, aku dah lama down. 

That's why I pray to Allah everyday, so that I could always start fresh. I want to have a brand new day each day. 

Kawan-kawan, tolonglah aku untuk naikkan semangat ni..Orang yang sedang diuji Allah ni memang perlu semangat. Yelah, macam inilah Allah nak bagi aku belajar. Belajar pon spesyel, sebab tak dinilai dalam exam kat massey pun..

Bila diuji dengan penyakit hati ni, memang susah sikit. Tapi inilah yang akan buat aku kuat satu hari nanti. InsyaAllah. 

Ya Allah, bless the broken road...

    
   I was a child in my parents' arms.

    Every inch of my body was full with questions and ambitions.

I was a loner.  
 I just realized that I was.

I used to play by the door alone.

   I remember of playing the garden hose.

Saw animals that could fly.

   Biting my tongue until it bleed.

Even tried to see the atoms with my naked eye. 

   Sat in the living room with family, when everyone was present and alive. 

Watched documentary about travelling, animals, history, and just about anything.

   How I love those moments.

With that, now I know.

   Door knob isn't placed in the middle as it will be harder to open the door.

The water from the hose not only precious to the plants, it also has projectile motion.

   Bees have wings that could not support them to fly, yet, they fly anyway.

Tongue has receptors and blood vessels.

   Atoms do exist, invisible to the naked eye.

Now I have a sweet, eternal memory of my own family and what I'd like in the future.

   Now I dream of going places and saving the world in my own fight. 

I am the outlier.

   I am weird and I admit it.

But hear this out, I have met and read about other weird people.

   And they rock!

I have my own triumphs and failures.

   You don't have to judge me, 

As I already judged myself.

   Am nowhere near perfect. 

I love my flaws, although sometimes it made me weep.

   With these flaws, I made a choice.

A choice which sometimes makes me a winner.

   But sometimes it turns me into a loser.

A winner walks proudly before she begins to make a wrong turn.

   She thinks this is her destiny.

She keeps walking on, finding her true destination.

   But to no avail.

She keeps on looking for signs, but she couldn't find it. 

True, I've been blessed.

   I am lucky to go to places.

But I worked so hard for it.

   So it's not fair when people say I am a slacker. 

I never regretted anything I've done.

   Not many people choose the path that I just took.

But I learned so much.

   That's what's count for.

   

I have my own ups and downs.

  When I'm down. 

I just hope you will bring me back up again.

   I don't need to hear solutions.

I just need consolations. 

   Sometimes, that is all I need.

A simple encouraging words. 

   

   

Sementara masih di sini

Aku akan teruskan berjalan.

Aku yakin,  perjalanan itu mematangkan hati dan pemikiran.

Tak semua destinasi akhir itu indah belaka, 

Namun, perjalanan itu sendiri cukup mendidik.

p/s: perjalanan itu sendiri nikmat dan ujian dari Allah

camping bersama kamu...

Program Camping @ Galing Series 2: Ready, Set, Go!
20-22 April 2012.

:) It's a wonderful moment to see the kids. Wajah yang comel, putih bersih, tiada dosa. Kita yang seharusnya mencorakkan warna pada mereka. kan? hmm... *baca dengan nada motherly love tau* haha...Lets see apa yang jadi masa program tu...

I didn't put lots of pics since the internet is so slow here. huhu...

practice time! sempat lagi buat muka comel dia :)

malam persembahan~

muka-muka comel yang sabar tunggu giliran dorg...

"jadi tak jadi plan kita malam ni?" buat drama rupanya.

nasyeed on stage!

Last day, last session with these cuties...

*err.. abg fasi xtmasuk dalam cuties ok!* hahaha

One of the 10 groups yang sempat I snap the pic

Sampai je kat kampus, dah rasa rindu kat dorg... hehe... Penat? xtipu, memang penat tapi enjoy la. First day kat sana, sempat jumpa dengan student form 1 yang pernah ikut this prog last year and she still remembered the facilitators who have joined last year. Alhamdulillah... She and her friends gave positive feedback after joining this prog last year. Mood : miss them so much <3

'we no longer camp as for a night, but have settled on earth and forgotten heaven'.

again, a friend posted this, but she's not the writer..it's walden something, or something walden..haha

it was written in 19th century..

Sayang Tok Guru

aku tak tahu kenapa, tapi setiap kali orang hentam TG, aku rasa nak pertahankan beliau...Walaupun aku tak tahu apa isunya.

Rumah TG yang sgt sederhana jika dibandingkan dgn rumah pemimpin2 kita yg lain

Semoga sentiasa dirahmati Allah.

:(

yep. geram sebab ntah mana classmate (or schoolmate) aku yang pedajal aku hari ni...

*rasa macam nak tukar num*


at least, I've someone that I can share my probs - Allah.
He knows me well, and He knows what the best for me.

:(

nasib baik ade Allah nak bergantung..

kalau takde tah hape benda aku buat nak jadi tempat bergantung aku..
syukur + terima kasih Allah!!!

Doa Nabi Isa a.s.. "Ya Allah,aku amat bersyukur kepadaMu kerana menciptakan berbagai manusia di kelilingku. sesungguhnya setiap manusia adalah aset bagiku".

From a friend, and I couldn't agree more =)

 "Ada orang kata budak oversea / budak tajaan mana2 best je belajar ada orang taja tak payah penat lelah macam those yang tak dapat biasiswa.. Ooo.. tak pernah pulak ingat dulu biasiswa ni turun dari langit masa tengah tido.. berpeluh ketiak kot time interview! =..=" And the interview is just a small part of the whole long journey je.

Anyway, rezeki masing-masing. Studying oversea is not a bed of roses pun. Roses come with thorns (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

Di mana kita berada sekarang, di situlah Allah dah tetapkan kita untuk ada. Allah is preparing things for you, at the exact place u are now. Be glad with that fact :)"

 TAKE THAT WHINERS!

Genggam Gemilang SMK Maran : gemilang di sini dan juga di Sana. insya Allah

Assalamualaikum..

Lama tak buang emo dalam ruang ini. Haha... Update je la sket2 kehidupan sekarang. so far, alhamdulillah so good. :) Teehee... Actually, haritu ada join program Genggam Gemilang di SMK Maran 30 Mac - 1 April 2012 anjuran Kelab Pembimbing Rakan Siswa dengan kerjasama Bahagian Bimbingan Kerjaya dan Kaunseling UMP together with Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah Maran.

Target? For sure la SPM 2012 candidates of SMK Maran.

Berada dalam grup y pertama sekali bertolak ke sana untuk set up sket apa yg patut sementara menunggu grup kedua yg akan datang pada sebelah malamnya... sebab ada member yg still having class and also taking test on that night. Jom chekidaut gambor bawah... :)

yeah. sesi sharing dengan adik2 ni... semoga apa yg ditulis oleh adik2 tu akan jadi kenyataan.

aktiviti !! aim betul2 dik...

yang ini, pakcik fasi buat montaj utk penutup. teehee... semangat tul.

simfoni orkestra dalam keadaan mata tertutup. tonggang terbalik orkestranya... :) hehe

the best way how you handle an orchestra. see him ! oh yeah...

antara puteri2 dalam grup kami

station 1: kopitiam. maggi cup yg best... hahaha tgk muka pn dah tahu rasa mcmana...

pabila pakcik watashi bergaya... ngeeeeee~ teehee

bersenam pagi2... meh test sket skill tarian dengan kak Meen n abg Iki

and closure. PeRSis Gen 1 - Gen 4 di SMK Maran

itulah dia cerita aku dan mereka di program tersebut. :D semoga ukhwah ni diteruskan sampai bila-bila. rindu gak dengan adik-adik tu. hope dorang berusaha lebih lagi untuk SPM 2012. harapan ibu ayah pada mereka harapnya dapat ditunaikan... insyaAllah. gemilang di sini, dan gemilang di Sana juga.

need a trash bin for this..

I have very interesting people around me. 

They amuse me.

Now I know for sure that I live in the wrong crowd.

konsep berlapang dada apa yang kau laungkan ni? Dan aku tak akan pernah belajar dengan orang yang tak praktik apa yang dicanang mulutnya. 

They don't even bother to try to ask..they just assume it was my fault, as always.

I guess we're all still hypocrite..

I hate that word, but I gotta admit, we still are.

Our great leaders are now willing to ignore Allah's laws because the people's tongue are mightier than a sword. Saidina Umar used to punish his own son to his death for commiting adultery because of his fear to Allah, not the people.

how much do we know each other?

=)