Thoughtful Thursday

Funny when I get mad for no reason when I hear someone says "My mom is the best cook in the world!"

My mind then would tell me, "She's just bragging. Her mom's cooking is not that delicious as she thought it is. She just think they're delicious because that's all she ever eaten!"

Truth is, it hurts when you don't really remember what your own mother's dishes taste like. 

What's more funny is, I also get mad (Again, for no reason at all!) when someone told me they share everything with their mom. 

A wicked thought would then popped in my head, "No, you shouldn't share every details of your life with your mom! You shouldn't depend on anyone but you. She's not going to be by your side forever, you know? She's going to leave you sooner or later. What would you do then?"

Well, maybe I am jealous because I couldn't even talk to my own mother anymore. 

When I was a kid, I was told by a friend that her mom thought I was the one who kicked out my own mother. That woman was a bi*ch. It hurts so much that I could't even look at her face anymore. To this very day, I am very cautious to be closed to any elderly. 

Sometimes, I am paranoid over trivial dreams I get. Probably because once I had a dream which foretold me of God's planned action. 

I have so little memory of her, not all are good memories but still, how I wish I could hug her.

She left when I was 10. I am 20 now. Not a single day passes by without me thinking of her. 

P/s: Probably because I think better when I write.